and there it went

I really don't know how else to describe or explain this. But each night, or rather each borderline conscious minute is not void of fear.

Love---Fear---Hate.
ha ha.
yeah we have all watched donnie darko.

I am not talking about that.
what i am referring to is a ravine of despair, the fear that bites you like frost.

I crawls up my toes into my calves
and even though my calves aren't that friendly with my throat .... I am suffocating.

Apathy mixed with unbearable emotion, how is that possible... apathy and tears?

That is absolutely dumb.
And yet I just rolled around on my floor for hours seeking salvation in the uneven brooklyn hardwood.

In the waterfalls of my despair, The endless hair pulling incidents that are only tamed by medication because people, those friend-parent-lover people, they find it "cute", "intriguing", or "playful"....the same people with empty promises, stench.. oh the stench of human recourse and cliche.
Yes You.
Why don't You change something, Why don't you make sure, that someone you have uttered certainly significant phrase to is not lying in the gutter of its own making.

Well, the responsibility is too high.